Raise your hand if you want everything to be perfect…. I’m sure everyone would raise their hand on that one. It’s not wrong to want everything to work out as you have hoped. We want perfect finances, perfect kids, the perfect job… and the perfect life.
I learned a valuable lesson this past month. I sat at my computer trying to get this website to look the way I viewed it in my mind. I thought to myself, “The themes aren’t right and the colors are off. I can’t get this to work. I need to have a presence in social media first. I’m never going to have enough written before I can release. Forget it, I’m not doing this.” Oh, and let’s not forget this super religious statement: “The devil’s attacking me.” Self-sabotage mode kicked in.
I sat there frustrated for a few hours. My phone rang. There goes that accountability partner checking in on me again. “I really don’t feel like talking to her right now,” I thought to myself. I had nothing new to report. I only typed up two posts and then my mind went blank. I could not understand what was going on… I had a list of about 30 blog topics written down but could not write on any of them. I felt as though my dream of being a “blogger” was collapsing.
Although I didn’t want to talk to her I picked up the phone anyway. What good is an accountability partner if you’re going to ignore them? I immediately started venting. Once I got done with my rant of everything going down the drain, she asked me some simple questions. “Well, what do you need to get it up and running? You have 2 posts now… can’t you schedule the other ones for later dates?” I slowly tuned her out because she wasn’t agreeing with me about how bad things were. I’m happy she didn’t, by the way. I need truth and optimism in my corner to push out fear and doubt.
In my tuning out I hear, clear as day, “Perfection is your crutch”. The Holy Spirit knocked me right back in the game. Although I tuned her out, my spirit didn’t. It heard exactly what it needed and relayed the message in a way I could understand it.
I was looking for my outward experience to fit my vision. I wanted it to be perfect. What’s wrong with that? This was the problem: My pursuit of perfection was keeping me from making any progress. I didn’t want anyone to have any bad reviews of my site. I wanted it to be beautiful and look like I have been blogging for years. However, you can not and will not please everyone. I was so worried about how others were going to view my work that I forgot my why’s. I forgot why I started doing all of this in the first place. It wasn’t for the beauty but for outreach.
Because my state of mind changed I started nitpicking my work. I became my own blocker. I needed a realignment. That’s what that call did for me. It helped me remember that no human is perfect (Romans 3:23 says, “For all have sinned, and come short of the glory of God”). I also forgot that faith is little by little (Mark 4:28). In other words, I will get to the vision that I see in my mind but I first have to start with the little that I have in front of me. I can adjust as I go on my journey.
I threw out all the road blocks and took my friends advice. What do I need to get this up and running? Let’s start with the simple things. Get a theme that works. Literally 10 minutes after I got off the phone I found it. I had been searching for days, but because my alignment was off I could not see what was right in front of me. Once I got out of my own way, progress took place.
Ask yourself, “Am I creating my own road blocks?” Where is the need for perfection holding you back? Are you waiting on your finances to be just right before getting married? Are you putting off applying for that dream job until you can get the right degree? Having trouble purchasing a home because none of them is a perfect fit?
Don’t let perfection get in the way of progress!